Well kinda, maybe....and maybe not.
Perhaps I did this in the vein of self preservation....but then again...I am a baaaaaaad person.
A couple of posts ago, I made mention that I was kinda messing with the idea of th old main squeeze....Welllll
I stayed away from that, noticing that he had many of the old behaviors that use to drive me nutts. Mainly he seemed to have many secrets. He use to always tell me that was just the way he was....
So last night as I was sitting in the quiet of a Sunday evening.....eeekkkks, I hacked his e-mail.
Yes I did.
I could of always done this, but I chose to not do it. I don't know what was different about last night...perhaps, I knew I was drifting back to something not so great...
Yup.....I was right. He's a big time player. All the things he would say to me, he says as part of his shtick.
At first I was mortified.....and I feel a tad guilty...but not all the way guilty.
I also feel pretty happy that I did not step back into that stuff again.
LOL...OMG.....can't believe I did that.
But now I know and I don't feel so bad....
We were....how do you say....seeing each other...for 5 years in a very strange kinda way.
I always knew in the back of my heart he was like that....I just never chose to confirm it.
Now I know....I'm wondering if this is a good thing or a bad thing....Sometimes ignorance is bliss.
Monday, November 17, 2008
I'm A Baaaaaad Person
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I always told my kids they could expect me to respect their privacy, as long as they didn't give me a reason not to. If they gave me reason not to - I told them I would search their rooms or anything else I deemed necessary. Never had to.
Boyfriends tho, are another story. I'm not admitting that I hacked anyones email, cell voicemail, or work voicemail as well. But if I HAD - you can damn well guarantee he gave me reason. IF I did it, of course. :)
I totally understand the need to know sometimes.
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