This is Pinky in the car. How cute is he when waiting for me. her perches up on the ledge to watch for me. I love when he does it, looks sooo cute. That's Orbits head right next to him.
Funny how you get when your on a diet....I would use one word to describe it...discouraged. It is so easy to just want to chuck it. I think that is a mechanism that the mind uses to try and get one to start eating again. None the less, it seems that I am always trying to find a way to justify throwing away a month of hard work.
When I look at the pictures, right when I first take them, I say to myself...How awful, how terrible, and I believe that there are no changes to be seen. But then when I go back and look at the pictures two weeks later, I can see the improvements.
I think that is also called something like body dismorphic, or something like that. I have learned not to listen to myself, and just go on with my day. I shut down that little negative person that sits at the back of my mind and yaps at me filling my head with negative thoughts.
She says to me....."whats the use, nothings changed...go ahead, make yourself feel better, go have that bagel with cream cheese. Your too old anyway, go ahead, eat that piece of chocolate cake....." and on and on and on. Where did this little person come from anyway? And how do I get rid of her?
I find that she has a big influence on my life...I don't like her!
For some reason, I cannot get up the entire video snippet, it cuts off the front and back.
It is seeming to have a problem with the splicing.
I weighed in at 132 today. I was disappointed, I would of like to seen 131. But okay....I will keep on until I get there. This is Wednesday.
This is today.....I can see I need to eat some carbs...
Sunday, September 30, 2007
Friday, September 28, 2007
Wednesday, September 26, 2007
Ha....an add for Vigra...Get it? "Stays Up Like Magic"
I have a link here for a Fat Loss Diet that will help you lose weight like "magic". I am actually going to make this soup. I am going to start another blog on Chinese food therapy. It should be fun and interesting.
Chinese Recipe For Rapid Fat Loss
I finally got my batteries for the camera and they are charging. So I will have new pictures of the puppies and me tomorrow. I have missed my camera.
I got some horrible news yesterday...The business that carries our accounts receivables has filed Chapter 11 Bankruptcy Protection. They owe my business over 250K....needles to say, yesterday was a very crummy day....I hope to read this post next year, by then it will of been a year, and the shock will have passed. But right now, I am still in a state of denial that such a thing could of happened.
Bummer to say the least...ouch ouch ouch.....
Posted by Holly Mead at 9:02 AM
Tuesday, September 25, 2007
I love this blog called Sunday Secrets. Its about people who send in their secrets on picture postcards.....they always have a postcard that I can appreciate. This week, I dedicate this postcard to my Aunt Patty.
Two weeks ago, as usual I was harassing her about smoking. You see, she has progressive MS, and the smoking makes it worse. When she smokes she cannot get out of bed. It kicks her ass...but she has been a lifelong smoker for 40 years.
She stayed with me for six weeks. During that time she did not smoke. By the end of the time, she was up and using her walker. She also increased her energy level ten fold...but....she was unhappy...because why do you think?
Because she could not smoke. So she went back to her small apartment where she could smoke in peace.
Tragic is the only word I can think of to describe the situation.
I was bugging her to stop smoking again, because once again, she is bed ridden...she hung up on me and I have not heard from her since.
I am sure she wants me to go away so she can smoke in peace....
Posted by Holly Mead at 2:30 PM
Monday, September 24, 2007
What a tough week it was this past week from my dieting. I don't have a picture today because I have to get to the store and buy some batteries,l but I will have one tomorrow. I hit the 132 lb mark, which is a big deal for me. It is that weight point that is a "break through point" for the many times I have tried to get down to 120 and failed, because I always hit that set point of 134, and can't get past it...but this time hurray, I made it! Tomorrow...some pictures.
I felt really zapped.....
Also, the food I eat is BORING......here it is, the same thing everyday, mainly because I know how many calories each meal actually is, and it is food I can tolerate;
morning 1/2 cup (raw) cooked oatmeal and water
lunch is 10 egg whites, two corn tortillas, 3/4 oz avocado, 1 oz non fat feta, 1 Tb low fat sour cream
afternoon snack is the same
dinner is the same with only 5 egg whites, 1 corn tortilla, no avocado, 1/2 oz nonfat feta, 1 TB of low fat sour cream
snack 1/2 cup low fat cottage cheese and Splenda
Of course I supplement my vitamins with Monavie.
After my workout this past Saturday, I decided I needed to get out of the house because I had been feeling sorry for myself , so I went to the movies and I saw (no p0pcorn or candy) the documentary No End In Sight...
After seeing that film, I said that I will not feel sorry for myself again....Those poor people of Iraq. Here I am feeling sorry for myself over a self imposed diet, and these people can barley survive. How shallow of me...
Aunt Sally, if your reading this, you need to go see this documentary about the war. It is an eye opener, and it is put together so well. A must see piece of work.
Then yesterday I went to the movies again and saw In the Valley of Elah....(no candy or popcorn). And once again, I was struck how tragic it is for not only the people of Iraq, but the poor young men and women that are fighting this tragic war. My problems are so small and insignificant....
Anyway...another thing to mention, is the CNN special called American Fed Up..which is about how much food we eat. It is also worth seeing. It really drives home the point at how much food surrounds us...it is really quite tragic.
The main message from the CNN documentary is that we as a nation are mindless eaters. That we will eat what is put in front of us, no matter how much. And because there is so much food always available, we as a nation are constantly putting food in our mouths.
There also appears to be No End In Sight for that problem as well....
Here is a link I stumbled on which is pictures of a bunch of meals that have a maximum of 300 calories...
300 Calorie Meals
Look how small it looks to what we normally see when we eat!
Posted by Holly Mead at 6:53 AM
Friday, September 21, 2007
Sunday, September 16, 2007
I just bought this nifty little bistro set for my deck....Its really cute and very cozy. It overlooks both of my gardens; It's peaceful and really quiet and very pretty....
And as I was sitting at my new bistro...just taking it all in and enjoying the moment, I looked across at the other empty bistro chair....and I wondered, why can't I find anyone to share that empty seat with?
And then today as I was stumbling through the net.....I found the answer;
Saturday, September 15, 2007
This is Orbit taking his "Ju Ju".....this is the stuff that makes his back better. We all take it. But this video is sooo cute. Orbit is just a sweetie.
His weight is now down to 104 lbs. One year ago he was at 139, and was what the Vet called "obese"...and now look at him, almost down to 100 lbs.
He's doing so good now....What is so great about MonoVie is that it has that Acaii Berri and a Chinese fruit called Leeche. In Chinese medicine we say that it is a Blood tonic. I believe works really good on Orbi'ts back because it fights inflammation.
It is not Arthritis, because I just had his back x-rayed and it came back negative for any type of joint disease.....None the less both of us take it....See how much Orbit loves his JuJu:
The problem with losing weight when your older than fifty is that your skin literally hangs. That is because of the concept of carb depletion. When you don't eat a significant amount of carbs, you hold less water, which leaves ones skin.....how do I say...down right saggy.
So what is a woman to do? The answer is; be patient and eat essential fatty acids to help with the elasticity of the skin. Whatever....it sucks.
Here are my pictures from Sept 3
My skin looks tighter, but I am bigger. Now I am smaller and look flabby. thats okay, because when I carb up it will all tighten up.
I am at exactly 135 on my way down to 134.....After labor day, which was a free for all of food with friends, I started at 140+.
I hate taking pictures of myself....seems stupid.
I am extremly tired from those year end exams...I feel like I can barely lift my head. I think I am going to crawl into bed with Orbit for "NAP NAP" time!
Now that I am done with those horrible exams I can spend more time blogging...One of my favorite things to do.
Posted by Holly Mead at 12:04 PM
Thursday, September 13, 2007
Augggg...today is my exam day...these are giant year end exams. I have to take themto to begin my internship for the acupuncture clinic. This is my last step of this four year process.
So, the good news is...It is a milestone...a hard one at that.
Positive thinking for the day is that this will mean I am entering my final three semesters....this time next year, I will be done.
The picture says is all....
Okay...gotta go and get ready.....
Posted by Holly Mead at 7:35 AM
Sunday, September 9, 2007
Once again...my dogs can reflect how I feel. This chart pretty much sums it up for both me and Daisy.
I of course am on my 90 day diet, so I feel like I could eat the food pyramid....
I can say that my little 3 lb Daisy girl seems to have an non discerning palate and appears to enjoy her food as much as me and maybe more so.
She leaps for joy when she gets her morning cottage cheese.
Look at these pictures...like me, she is always looking for something good to eat....
(click to enlarge)
Notice that the frig door is always open so that she is able to get a look?...that's because I'm always gazing at what I can't eat....She joins in and offers up her opinion.
Ya know, I'm known to have a good appetite...I can eat the best of them under the table. But I don't know, I think Daisy is right up there with me....
I tested her just to see if she would eat anything I put in front of her and.... The answer is yes; Look here she is chowing down on watermelon;
While Pinky can't believe his eyes... he's thinkin' "A dog eating watermelon...Girl what's wrong with you?"
There there is dinner time, which is a big event....take a look:
And lastly, here is Daisy Girl eating her favorite treat...a Pig Ear....Yummmm....Sounds good to me right now...I'M HUNGRY
Posted by Holly Mead at 8:42 PM
Thursday, September 6, 2007
This cartoon is how I feel about the dogs today...they pretty much have me trained, thats for sure. What a great existence ....
They don't have to worry about their next meal
They don't have to work
They receive unconditional love, and lets see....
They get to sleep on my bed....oh and lets not forget about "treat day"
They get a very wonderful treat(at least to them it is) everytime I go shopping they receive a special gift of Pig Ears, and it makes their day....
Ahh, if only a set of Pig's Ears would make me happy....
Of course Orbit's health is top priority around here. His last back problem (Meet Sweet Orbit)
set me back $1500 from Vet bills.
But more importantly, I have him taking best supplements that I can find. Currently, he is taking something called MonaVie. Actually this is something which we both take.
This is great stuff, and at $40 bucks a bottle of 25 ounces, it should be great. But this product really really works, because it seems like a miracle potion for his back, as well as for my shoulder.
I have stopped giving it to him just to see if I am fooling myself that its working. But I m not, because the very next day, his back gets bad again, and then I give him the juice, and then it gets better.
Here is the MonaVie Link
It works for both of us.....I take two ounces a day and he takes two ouces a day. I am going to video tape us taking it together!
Posted by Holly Mead at 4:25 PM
Monday, September 3, 2007
Time to get serious now...I knew that the past two weeks of dieting were working up to the day after labor day. I dieted for my show pretty heavy Monday through Saturday afternoon. I did not take starting pictures because I was too friggin fat and out of shape...
I did take pictures after the first week of dieting and getting back to the gym.
Here are the pictures...and boy...I have a long way to go...Although the video of me after week two shows definite improvement and I look in much better shape.
Here is me after the second week of semi dieting and how funny.....I hate taking pictures of myself...but, I can see the difference and when your hungry it will keep you motivated!
And my blogs would not be complete without pictures of my dogs....Here is Pinky and Daisy sleeping together. I love to watch them....they have their own little world....
Okay...tomorrow I'm back to school! and everything else...Summer is over for me.
Sunday, September 2, 2007
Oaky...Labor Day weekend and its HOT...really hot for us....and there seems to be an invasion of F--king flies....errrrrrr, grump
I'm sweating as I write this blog...Anyway...got a new camera and I have been learning how to use it.
Also, we can now easily add video...so I am going to start with one of my first videos of Pinky and Daisy playing.
Daisy and Pinky are brother and sister...just from different litters....I have a suspicion that Daisy may have a different father, since she looks more like half German Sheppard or something like that.
Here goes my first photo video
Okay, its nothing special...but I am way too hot to get creative today...
I do have a favorite picture to add...
Daisy had just come out of digging in the Garden with Pinky...Check out the dirt around her nose.
Too hot to blog anymore...I have lots of stuff tomorrow!
Posted by Holly Mead at 7:02 PM